I am not the person who love to type and describe too much.
Well, this time I want to share about how I see love in my life this time. I keep thinking that 26 yo, is it mature already or nah?
Semakin hari semakin berubah - ubah pikiran tentang pasangan hidup. Seharusnya semakin yakin or looking someone serious, so I'm not really wasting my time. Ada dua versi yang ada di otak ku saat ini
#1 Every girls have their own dream prince and me either. Beberapa wish list date ku sudah check list like sunset date, sunbathe, canoeing, cycling, movie, cooking, timezone, dancing in the kitchen, jogging, sunrise, sing a song. Masih ada beberapa yang belum terpenuhi, ada dua wish yang aku pengen banget do it, long drives then carpool and Lantern Festival. So dari wish tersebut timbulah kriteria - kriteria lelaki idaman. It's so clear, lelaki yang love me as me but it's okay if you want me be a better version of me but wait it's take times. He is a caring person, sweet, funny, gentle, mature, simple but stylish and kind! Oh maybe bit being a paparazzi for me. That's it. Enough.
#2 Trauma. Satu kata yang menggambarkan aku saat ini, yes percintaan ku tidak pernah mulus dan bertahan lama. I'm still thinking "what's wrong?" Apakah too much love itu salah ? Do I deserve the same love like I give? Setiap kali aku ingin membuka hati, I keep asking it again and again. Bukan nya aku gak mau membuka hati but I try it but I can not push it. Need time, indeed but aku sudah merasa give up dan memilih untuk if being alone is better then I will be alone forever. This is my comfort zone this time. Bahkan I feel like it's not interesting anymore about in relationship.
C - Feb 22
